Happy New Year. Though it already seems old J Well not too old, but its beginning is busy at work, so I don’t
have much time for big new year’s reflections and resolutions.
Most of them is old too, the new ones I are
not really dependent on me only, and as I wrote in last note – they are pretty mature
and standard for a woman that is heading into my 30s.
I must say I am recently catching myself with
the little nervous voice in my head saying “30 years old… SOON”. It’s worrying
me only because I feel like I might be wasting time in my life on thing that I
don’t like and that overall don’t matter. I am not really panicking. Or I am in
denial. Don’t know.
All in all, time just flows. No big
difference between 2012 and 2013 so far. I will be going to Poland soon, then I
will be waiting for spring, that I really, really miss, because it’s cooooold
(and it will most likely be like that till April). Then… who knows. By then my
handsome boyfriend will probably start working full-time, maybe we would even
move to a new apartment, maybe I will succeed in changing jobs, maybe. Maybe
not. So in a way, I am expecting some big changes from 2013. But I did expect
the career change, I was SURE it would happen, also at the beginning of 2012.
Well, it didn't happen, so I am worried, but at least I need to keep trying.
In a way I am content more or less now,
just tired with the work, just wishing to for more family warmth. But even here
and now, I have those moments from time to time.
Fireworks above NCHU, the New Year's Eve 2006/2007
